so tonight she and i are getting together to read tarot cards.

i've never had them read for me before.  and i've only ever given two readings.  but it was crazy how accurate they were when i did it.  wow.

this could be interesting.

everything that's happened in the last few days has seemed like a whirlwind.

she's in love with me.

and i'm feeling more and more for her.

and then there's my husband.

and how he hates her.

and how she hates him.

and i feel so trapped between the two.

and i just want to be happy.

i need to be held.

i need to be touched.

and lately she's the only one that seems willing to do any of that.

i'm afraid i've become trapped in a loveless marriage and the thought terrifies me.

what do i do now?